Freeze your mind
and others’ minds too.
Then watch hope melt
and run like glue—
down our dreams
and through
our days—
turning dreams into
Kafkaesque goo,
and day to night.
Now tonight
witness your plight;
the pessimist excels
only at
being right.
I try to insert my favorite CD
into the rental car stereo
but a plastic barricade
prohibits me. The thump
of plastic against plastic
is readily translated,
Since you got a cheap rental car
You must forgo good music.
Radio my only option, I hop
from spot to spot chasing away
static with my fingertips.
But I discover the static
has more depth
and diversity
and beauty
than the music I seek. So I cling
to the static, clinging
to the notion
that the last radio station
sounds like the last radio station
and the last radio station
before that. Oh, the sweet sound
of static redeems my ride.
People in their 30’s know the decade
that separates them from their teens
becomes a giant chasm which takes their
attempts to return and swallows them.
Police on the other side enforce the rules
of that one way street which stretches
across one’s history to now. Yet
there are some who did not follow
their bodies across this road
when it was time. They stay
to watch reruns of their idealized
youth as they reenact roles
they never played.
Clouded certainty
cast over the air
where small talk
gets big sponsors.
Forecasting impending
degrees of change
while we watch
from within
climate-controlled
vacuums.
When the weatherman’s words
of what’s happening
outside
aren’t enough
to persuade us,
he will stand
in the midst
of the eye
of the storm
watchers
to show us.
Solicited second opinions
from rain-soaked citizens
solidify this.
Now back to the studio
a warm front softens
the wind of bad news
as we’re reminded
once again—
weather conditions are temporal.
But Acts of God turned
into entertainment
are not.
It is the length of the average wallet,
about four-and-a-half inches.
A dollar bill placed on top
easily obscures this polyhedron’s width.
Five of its faces are not much to look at
but one of these will glow at times,
with a radiance greater than a cigarette lighter
in a dark room.
That’s when we find ourselves
returning to it, touching it, talking to it—
beckoned by its brilliance and buzz.
Attuned to its sounds like parents
to their children’s cries, and responding
to its calls more than this. We attend
to this four-and-a-half inch machine
again. Yet, its true length lies
in the distance between this phone
and that phone, and the distance
these phones continue to create
between people.
Try not to borrow another one’s hype
Let reason resonate in a sound mind
Temper your zeal when the cause is just tripe
Blind faith and hype spawn the get-rich-quick-type
And their children play each other in kind
Try not to borrow another one’s hype
Mindless men murmur a meaningless gripe
From dissonant data in haste enshrined
Temper your zeal when the cause is just tripe
Rages, crazes and cults when the time’s ripe
Drink the Kool Aid® of the latest design
Try not to borrow another one’s hype
Campaign rallies and the psyches they swipe
Politics: party time for the maligned
Temper your zeal when the cause is just tripe
Motivational mantras, seething snipe
Truth takes some mining through these things to find
Try not to borrow another one’s hype
Temper your zeal when the cause is just tripe
I just swallowed a bowling ball
and it seems so much
like the end of the game,
for I’ve been kicked
off this team.
Yet neither of us knew
the words we said
would descend
toward our bowels
to fill our intestines
with fire.
Words which spawned
emotion
viscous enough
to obscure this bond
between friends.
Words far detached
from their referents,
they made arguments
of their own
and distributed
the results
between us.
Perhaps I should feel relieved
as I am now relieved
from my post
of walking on pins
and needless fouls
in these strange shoes
fearful every step
is bound to damage
something,
when words take precedence
over
intentions
and preconceived notions reign.
Yet it doesn’t work that way
for a true friend.
Even the complexity
of the relationship
does not subtract
from its value
or the pain
of fearing
this is the end.
Now I am waiting
in the gutter
watching those things of my friend’s
and others
roll by,
longing to strike
up conversation
once again,
hoping this friendship will be spared.
And the band is set to play
their next set,
but I’m at the end
of my capacity
for passive entertainment.
A pepper spray pen poised
in my breast pocket beckons me
to rewrite the end of the night.
A weapon disguised as that utensil
which typically bleeds only ink,
not made for scribbling
on another’s lungs.
I fiddle with this canister of fire
beneath a return vent,
and unwittingly spread its heat
throughout the venue
into unsuspecting respiratory systems.
The band stops. Mass exodus ensues.
The patrons and the players
depart the sea
of red pepper air
now too thick to breathe.
Outside I stand among them
like school children
at a fire drill
awaiting further instruction.
Amusing speculations abound
about the air.
Each has a theory for how it got tainted.
But it is I who turned us into dragons.
And while we’re all still breathing fire
I dare not disclose its source.
The first in a row
of parallel train cars
from a tightly packed set
placed back in its pack
once the holidays were through.
Stored on a floor
of gravel, ice and mud.
The air conditioner’s hunchback
protrudes from a window,
and serves as a shelf for snow.
It slowly keeps falling.
The porch sports grass
that never grows
but wears out slowly.
I dwell inside this box
of dissonance thinking
this might be one of my last
nights. Not knowing if I’m
ready for my relationship
with these walls and the city
that taxes them to change.
I contemplate this chance
to work and to thrive
in a climate that’s rarely cold,
yet always Christmas.
Does this purported paradise surpass
free coffee, free food, free mechanic,
and those who greet me daily,
all about to be forsook?
With divided mind I pray for a sign
of whether its time to leave this place
behind. Then sleep falls upon me.
Ice falls upon the earth (later
to be masked by a deceitful
thick blanket of snow). I awaken
in indecision, start toward
my car to take my racing
thoughts for a ride. I slip
off the fake grass and fall
baptized into the cold
reality of what is left
for me here.
You’ve torn through flesh of animals
And crushed the nuts of trees.
You’d hang with others like you
To tear all that enters to pieces.
Yet today you slimy sharp stone
Send me a biting signal. The nerve.
Buried beneath pearly white
Lies a canal of bottomless agony.
Like an alarm with no ‘off’ switch
That must get unplugged to stop.
In different times, you were
Indifferent like the Buddha,
Detached yet still on task, intact.
Now all the years of your toil
Consolidated to this message of pain.
A vengeance I can no longer endure.
I will level with you. You must go.
This same fate awaits your friends
Who pull the same.