whatareyouthinking

Awakened to the lives he stole
From thoughts the night before
Asleep he pondered, seizing souls
Of those left unignored
By his dreams that took their toll
The death that they ensured
The peace of mind they did annul
And all he must endure

Sleeping Man-
Arise to take a break
Sleeping Man-
From the dreams you make
Sleeping Man-
Realize your mistake
Sleeping Man-
Wanted dead or awake

He prays never to see the night
But a consciousness extension
Now approaching absence of light
Wanting to ease the tension
From another day he had to fight
The dreams he dare not mention
Knowing all along wrong from right
A heart and mind dissension

Sleeping Man-
You’re out in a flash
Sleeping Man-
When it’s time to crash
Sleeping Man-
Destroyed what crossed your path
Sleeping Man-
Now we reap your wrath

Still a threat to all mankind
For as long as his stay
Appearing in his dreams unkind
Death’s the price to pay
Still we never came to mind
That’s why we’re here today
Though anytime we could find
He’s dreamed us all away

Sleeping Man-
You keep it all inside
Sleeping Man-
In yourself you confide
Sleeping Man-
Dream along for the ride
Sleeping Man-
Dream your own suicide!

Copyright © December 1997, James Marshall

Wake up–it’s time to play
A humanitarian today
Push people out of your way
We know you have a lot to say

The true colors you tried to hide
Still dwell behind your wall of pride
Bleeding through the holes, denied
By the facade of which you abide

You claim to be down to earth
Though your eyes to the sky
And your nose in the air
Seizing others’ self worth
Putting yourself high
Leave the rest in despair

Tell me how does it feel
To be never wrong
But always far from right?
The truth, will you ever reveal—
Or has it been too long—
Since you’ve seen the light?

Empty words within deep thought
To manipulate the ones you taught
And steal the minds of those that faught
Respect unearned cannot be bought!

When you’re wrong there’s no remorse
Still another time you run it’s course
And stand there beating a buried horse
You always win but only by force

You claim to be down to earth
Though your eyes to the sky
And your nose in the air
Seizing others’ self worth
Putting yourself high
Leave the rest in despair

Tell me how does it feel
To be never wrong
But always far from right?
The truth, will you ever reveal—
Or has it been too long—
Since you’ve seen the light?
© 1997, J. “Xakk” Marshall

Closed minds so tried and true
Open mouths had laughed at You
Blinded eyes have missed the view
With blocked ears to misconstrue

Instruments, which seem so real
Not tools but weapons they conceal
In the end, only to reveal
The evil disguised by their appeal

Yet one day they’ll be forced to swallow pride
Their own and that of those of which have died
While on earth his wish they’ve once again defied
And the words of The Fittest were denied

A con will cry a false tear
Give words of wisdom insincere
Repel the truth to lies adhere
Watch another’s conscience disappear

Yet one day they’ll be forced to swallow pride
Their own and that of those of which have died
While on earth His will they’ve once again defied
And the words of The Fittest were denied

Open minds have gone astray
Closed mouths never will convey
Unresponsive hearts beat on display
As we watch their souls decay

Yet one day they’ll be forced to swallow pride
Their own and that of those of which have died
While on earth His will they’ve once again defied
And the words of The Fittest were denied

© 1997, J. Mars Hall

One day I’m afraid to find
That vanity was all in vain
And if I leave my past behind
It will still not make me sane

A need exists to make my mind
And from apathy abstain
For on the fabric of mankind
I won’t even leave a stain

Seeing life living a lie…
Watching all that surrounds me die
Now it’s just Passing Me By
And God knows I didn’t try

Conceiving things I’ll never know
Imagination left unguarded
To lack the drive I need to grow
Will end all that I have started

Seeing life in a haste…
Watching old friends go to waste
While I just take up space
With all the things I cannot face

I fear the nightmares may come true
Revealing my life squandered
The dreams I never did pursue
And my ambitions, only pondered

Seeing life living a lie…
Watching all that surrounds me die
Now it’s just Passing Me By
And God knows I didn’t try

Seeing life in a haste…
Watching old friends go to waste
While I just take up space
With all the things I cannot face

Only to leave without a trace…
Copyright © November 1997, James Marshall

Wake up feel like hell
Look into the mirror
I just don’t look well
Death could it be getting nearer?
I need a placebo
Or at least some reassurance
I cant let it go
But I’m losing all endurance

What is this I see?
What is this I feel?
Did my mind play tricks on me?
Or this time could it be for real?
Suppose it is a warning
This one should I not ignore?
I pray I live ’till morning
But not in this state anymore!

If I’ve reached the point of no return
Lord, give me one more chance
In my mind these feelings churn
Diffusing into aimless dance
So I focus my concern
To sanity to spare
But will these thoughts forever burn?
Have I driven myself
…beyond repair?

One more cigarette
The price I pay
It’s too late I bet
I should have quit yesterday
My lungs just don’t feel right
Breathing is not so easy now
I wish I didn’t have a light
I wish I’d heeded to my vow

If I’ve reached the point of no return
Lord, give me one more chance
In my mind these feelings churn
Diffusing into aimless dance
So I focus my concern
To sanity to spare
But will these thoughts forever burn?
Have I driven myself
…beyond repair?

A chemical smell
To fight or flee?
I wish I could tell
Toxic, or is it just me?
I am getting dizzy
I knew I should have fled this place
I need to get busy
Lest I become a textbook case

If I’ve reached the point of no return
Lord, give me one more chance
In my mind these feelings churn
Diffusing into aimless dance
So I focus my concern
To sanity to spare
But will these thoughts forever burn?
Have I driven myself
…beyond repair?

If I need attention
Please comfort me for a while
If laughter’s the best medicine
Then teach me how to smile
If you meet me along the way
I’m sure I’ll find my place
For I can’t take another day
In a relentless cerebral race

If I’ve reached the point of no return
Lord, give me one more chance
In my mind these feelings churn
Diffusing into aimless dance
So I focus my concern
To sanity to spare
But will these thoughts forever burn?
Have I driven myself
…beyond repair?
© March 1994 — J. “Xakk” Marshall

An obsession for life he freely admits
As a twenty-first century immortalist
A narcissistic youth self-seeking scientist
His own physician, biologist and physicist

The Book of Days proceeds but he won’t turn the page
As he tries to sunder the shafts of life’s mortal cage
Defies the clock with a relentless rage
Tries to perpetuate youth as the rest of them age

Seeking not just the fountain of youth
But his life be a deathless entity
To drive a moment of truth
Beyond eternity
Though he knew it uncouth
To dare mortality

Seeking more than just the birth of a lifeblood machine
Was determined to unearth The Death Vaccine

Scorned by outsiders but to his aim he cleaved
To rule the world in the way he perceived
To answer the question of who shall receive
The death inoculation of which he conceived

Granted the power from those lead astray
To become the people’s god of his modern day
Their prescription filled at a price they must pay
Now his every command they must obey

Seeking not just the fountain of youth
But his life be a deathless entity
To drive a moment of truth
Beyond eternity
Though he knew it uncouth
To dare mortality

Seeking more than just the birth of a lifeblood machine
Was determined to unearth The Death Vaccine

Some came to their senses and started fleeing
Others tried to cease the war they were seeing
From all walks of life but for once all agreeing
On pursuit to dis-create this evil being

[Musical Interlude]

The corruption and power he wasn’t willing to end
The citizens all joined to cease this trend
Though timely demise he once could suspend
He didn’t survive the bullet through his head

Seeking not just the fountain of youth
But his life be a deathless entity
To drive a moment of truth
Beyond eternity
While chasing his dreams aloof
Tripping over reality

Recompense for the abuse of his anodyne
Left without a use for his Death Vaccine
© 1993, J. “Xakk” Marshall